Hello, this is probably going to be my last post for a while and most possibly hard to write…
It’s gotten to the point where I’m scaring myself when I drink, here’s me thinking I’m having a laugh etc but I’m hurting myself. My girlfriend warned me a few months ago when I told her I couldn’t remember anything from the night before and I thought it was just a one off, but the past few times I’ve been out I’ve not been able to remember.
I can remember bits, I know that I did nothing wrong, but I can’t remember where I’ve been, how I got there and things like that. This morning I woke up shaking, I’ve lost my bag, my wallet and had to cancel all my cards. Luckily my friend rang and said he’s found my wallet but no bag, canceling my cards was still the best thing to do.
I’m vowing right here and right now that I’ll never drink stupid amounts of alcohol again. Drink has hurt our family in the past and I don’t want to be the one that’s hurting and upsetting people because of it. Everyone likes a drink so I won’t cut it out fully, I just won’t go stupid with it.
I’m so lucky to have a girlfriend that’s helping me and standing by me, and mum that cares and I’m going to do what they say and see a doctor about this. I’ve been told I’ve really low vitamin D and this could be due to depression and I guess drinking is my way of thinking everything is okay.
Well, that’s all from me for now. But don’t worry, I’ll be fine, and I’ll be back once I’ve sorted myself out.